mummy's birthday..

happy birthday to my dearest mum.. i wish u 身体健康.. stay happy always and all the best in everything.. hehe..

o ya.. 2day is oso a blur blur day.. i 4get 2 bring my thumb drive.. having presentation 2day.. shit rite? cos wen i wake up n gonna switch on the light but who noe my house dun have electric.. haiz.. dun talk bout me 1st.. 2day qian 4get 2 bring her file 2 school.. n she msg me in the morning.. she said tat she like 4get bring her life 2 college.. hehe.. den i was like.. v having the same condition.. damn blur la.. n jocelyn 4get 2 bring her hp 2 college 2day.. hehe.. our disease is now getting serious..

ok la.. gonna rest d.. if not many pimples d.. good nite..

Sad + angry + disappointed...

2day, tat "A" send me a msg tat make me damn angry n hate it..
"Pls tel ur friends dun treat my friends like shit jux cos of me.. pls.. if u dun 1 me 2 have frien.. den fine.. jux dun treat them like tis.. pls.. i beg u.." tis is wat he send..
wat he mean? my frien? his frien? my frien din do anything.. y he think tat everyone jux like him so sensitive? v NEVER treat his frien badly cos of him!!!!!! NEVER!! excuse me.. dun be so childish k? wat dun 1 u 2 have frien? haiz.. i really speechless.. his thinking jux like GAL.. its ok he send me tis.. guess wat.. he act emo 2day n purposely dun mix wit frien.. purposely sit alone.. jux 2 show he he has no friend.. i really cant tahan anymore.. haiz.. damn angry everytime saw his msg..

i put so many effort on chem n study many times d.. i really hope i can do it very well in the test.. but.. I CANT FINISH MY CHEM.. summore the last part tat i leave is essay which is 8 marks.. shit.. 8 marks gone.. not i duno do tat ques.. jux dun have enough time 2 do.. arghh.. damn angry.. haiz.. i really feel disappointed to myself.. every test oso cant finish at time.. haiz.. i must study hard d.. trial is coming..

how 2 talk???

izit the way i talking will easily hurt ppl? if so den really sry 4 those ppl i had hurted them.. my parent said tat i m too straight forward.. so sometimes will say smtg tat hurt ppl without realising.. izit? i talk without thinking? i duno la.. i never mean 2 hurt anyone.. mayb some ppl who r too sensitive will take it serious.. i jux like 2 joke wit frien.. have fun with them.. and i can talk everything with them.. when i m crazy (keep launghing) , i will talk rubbish and i enjoy tat moment.. hehe..
but.. i dun mean 2 hurt ppl.. :( really sry if i hurt anyone.. hope u all dun mind.. i really not purposely 2 do so.. haiz.. its really hard 2 be a good person.. everything should be perfect..

how 2 comfort ppl????

how u comfort ppl wen they r sad? haiz.. i really duno la.. really make me headache.. i duno wat tat person need.. i m so happy tat they will told me wen they r sad but den... i duno how 2 comfort them.. haiz.. say those auntie word? do u think it works? i dun think so.. wen a person sad wat they need most?? haiz.. really hope tat they can jux tell me wat can i help.. den i sure will do it 4 them if i able 2 do so.. i dun 1 ppl around me not happy.. its so suffer 2 c ur Friend sad but u cant do anything.. rite? i really hope they will always happy.. haiz.. but wat can i do?
so guys, do u have any idea?

Happy birthday to u..

Happy birthday 2 u (Jin Wei) ya.. hope all ur dreams come true and all the best.. hehe.. u remind me tat v r 18 d.. jux like unbelieveable.. hehe.. time pass damn fast la.. erm.. 2day u should be happy n enjoy 1.. but too bad.. u have 2 do ur homework.. u look so busy.. hehe.. pity u.. anyway.. hope v can bring happiness 4 u.. n hope u wil remember ur 18 birthday is celebrate with us lo.. hehe.. happy birthdya ya.. 20082008 :D


wanna c the pic v had taken? here you go..






yea.. this is Jin Wei's birthday cake.. how it looks like? tis cake is made by eva.. hehe.. erm.. the taste.. NOT BAD ba.. hehe..









well, tis is the pic v took 2gether.. From left, eva, me, jin wei, hui shien, khai wee..

Damn angry..

haiz.. 2day is a bad day 4 me.. feel so frustrated.. my com spoil d.. cant concentrate study.. time pass so fast my holiday wanna finish d.. suddenly.. so many stuff 2 worry.. make me very unhappy.. i reli worry bout my studies.. my chances 2 be pharmacist is very very tiny.. in class, i 'm not the top student but can consider as the worst student.. so how can i get the chances 2 enter universiti tat i want? haiz.. headache.. i dun 1 wasted my dad 20 thousand on SAM.. i reli hope i can study hard..

Love..

duno y.. suddenly had inspiration to create a love poem which is so true 4 me..

" 爱，是一个很奇妙的东西..
它总是来得太快，快到让人不知所措..
当你选择放弃，它却在你的身旁..
当你想要拥有，它却再度的让你失望..
当你对它有所期待，它却让你失去信心..

爱，真叫人心烦...
它总是很矛盾...
有时不知如何去对它...
或许，
让它自然的发生，自然的消失吧...
或许，
你的答案就藏在你的心里吧...

所以，
你的选择是？
记得要用真诚的心对待自己.... "

blur blur..

2day jocelyn was late 2 telok gadong station.. den i called her but tat time train ad reach.. i very blur duno wanna go into train anot.. at last i choose 2 wait jocelyn..
Jocin: i think i wait 4 jocelyn..
sis: hey.. u taking my phone la! come in 1st la..
i standing outside the train 4 few min.. hehe.. guess wat.. everyone is get into the train.. but i still standing outside the train.. everyone in train were waiting 4 me 2 get in.. hehe.. so pai se.. den i faster get into the train.. sry a jocelyn.. cos din wait 4 u..
After half an hour.. i taking bus 2 my college.. i m not afraid of alone but wat i worry is how 2 cross the road.. i'm thinking " oh shit, so many car.. wen onli can cross?" luckily tat time got office gal wanna cross the road oso so i follow her.. hehe..
Den wen i reach college.. the guard wanna check my student ID.. wen i take out my wallet.. all my shilings falls.. omg.. damn xia sui.. summore beside the staircase is garden.. how can i found back my shilings? i think everyone was looked at me.. luckily tat time my frien called me.. den i ans the phone act like nothing happen.. hehe.. but.. my shilings.. after finish talk on phone i go near the garden there n saw my 20sen shilings.. den i jux take it n went 2 my class.. i not dare 2 find others shilings.. hehe.. so paise la..

yea.. 2day mayb is the last day i can enjoy myself.. cos after tis i have 2 concentrate study d.. jocelyn, sharon n me went 2 redbox n singing.. hehe.. unbelievable jocelyn will follow us go.. sharon is so so so happy.. 2day v really sing many songs n really enjoy it.. hehe.. but i dun like there de service.. i HATE those worker!! they r so action.. like v din pay 4 them.. shit u la.. "redbox sucks" (Jocelyn 2008) .. hehe.. but i saw smtg funny from them.. 1 of the action worker nearly fell down.. hehe.. cos he watlk at wet wet de place.. den nearly fell down in front of me n jocelyn.. hehe.. i jux cant tahan n laugh at him.. the best part is after he fell down he act like nothing happen.. hehe.. still wanna act cool? Anyway.. i really enjoy myself 2day.. hehe.. after singing i make a decision d.. but it is a secret.. hehe.. thanks sharon thanks jocelyn.. love ya..

Blur Blur gang..

jocelyn, r u ok?
u ha.. so blur la.. keeps collides with things.. hehe.. ur leg got many "black green" d la.. leg swollen d still dun 1 massage it.. really cant tahan u.. let it be black black very nice a? dun la so scare pain.. nvm.. i wil help u massage 1.. hehe.. wanna c u scream.. next time pls concentrate when walking.. c.. leg so long 4 wat? so easy kena things.. hehe..
2day v realise tat our gang is so blur except sharon.. i think i not like them so blur.. hehe.. they (Qian and Jocelyn) always have many prb.. i.e. fall down, things drop n many many.. hehe..

stupid "A"..
i'm not a doll k? wen u angry den scold me.. after few min apologize 2 me.. wat tis all means? i ad say very clear d.. y cant u accept it? i'm sry.. i jux delete all ur msg.. sometimes dun even read it.. haiz.. i'm sry.. cos after reading ur msg i will get angry n hurt.. i ad told u dun msg me d.. i ad make everything clear d.. but den y u still cant understand? i even do stuff tat hurt u but u still act like nothing happen.. haiz.. i really duno wat 2 do d.. avoid ur cal, ur msg n u are stuff tat i do it everyday.. sometimes really fed up of it u noe.. i didnt stop u from loving me.. i jux hope u can keep distance with me.. dun send those geli msg 4 me.. its disgusting k? pls stop it!!!!

oh oh.. malaysian studies..

Act i plan 2 study malaysian studies 1.. but my frien gave me tips 4 malaysian studies.. Due to my tiredness, i jux study the tips.. i dun even think of whether the tips is reliable..i jux pray hard hope tat the tips is correct.. but guess wat? i m so unlucky.. non of the ques come out from the tips.. haiz.. i damn scare la.. jux simply tembak.. i really scare tat i wil fail it.. i dun wan.. i dun wan re-take malaysian studies.. pls.. pls.. hope teacher wil give me pass.. but since my teacher so bad, i think i dun hv tis chance d.. haiz.. sad.. :( Anyway, i wanted 2 thanks the person who gave me tips.. thanks.. n really sry 2 those ppl who read my tips lo.. i'm sry..

haiz.. physic?

haiz.. i put my affort in physic d.. but i still cant do well in physic.. how? i din sleep 4 the whole night 2 study physic.. but i still cant do the ques.. who can help me o? anyway i jux hope i can pass my physic..

annoying..

hey.. "A".. can u stop it? y cant u accept the truth? its impossible k? haiz.. i really fed up d.. how many times i have 2 explain 2 u? n y cant u understand? not i jx remember those bad memories.. its jux won love u anymore.. love is no forcing.. hope u can understand tat.. over is over d.. no matter u put how many effort on it, u won found back those memories d.. pls la.. dun lie urself d.. u can find so many reasons 4 urself.. u noe it is impossible d den y cant u jux give up? if v can be frien i feel very happy d.. nowadays, i cant even communicate with u.. i had tried.. but end up i get angry.. haiz.. i'm sorry.. i really feel so irritating with those sweet words.. cant u talk with me jux like normal frien? here got some advice 4 u.. perhaps be friend is a better way 4 both of us.. jux like me n kw.. our relationship getting better d.. cos he knew tat v r impossibe 2 be couple.. he start on with his new life and treat me as his best frien.. so good rite? n i can feel tat he is really happy with his new life.. he found back himself d.. i'm so proud of him.. hope u too..

haiz.. i'm sry.. i think i m not be able 2 forgive u.. u really really very annoying.. u destroy my mood.. i HATE u.. hey guys.. u noe wat ppl called me? a bitch, a hooker.. should i be happy wit tat? its hurt.. i should stay strong n not 2 tel my frien.. tis is wat u told me.. wat the hell u 1? fine.. perhaps i should say thanks 2 u.. cos u telling me all tis.. u PROTECT me.. ok.. i saw it.. the way u PROTECT me.. i really appreciate it.. so wat do u need now? ha? can i say i jux 1 2 break our relationship? i never wanted 2 have any relation wit u.. jux like i never meet u.. never noe u.. may i? i doubt so.. n i really fed up of ppl commenting on me.. i hate it k? does it relate wit u all? y so gossip? did u feel the pain which is the same as me? did u experience my condition? haiz.. how can u all jux simply say? its fine.. i hope i can ignore wat ppl say.. cos i noe wat am i doing now.. i din did anything wrong.. my frien trusted me.. haiz.. i jux hope everything can be stopped.. i really sad.. mayb no one can understand my feeling.. cos u all din experience my condition.. the way they treat me.. haiz.. i jux dun 1 2 voice out.. but i din voice out doesnt mean tat i dun care k? haiz.. how do u feel if ppl cal u a bitch o hooker? n guess wat.. ppl say my wearing got prb? haiz.. i din show any part of my body k? can u let me wear wat i 1? haiz.. its really very hating u noe.. wat i wear ppl oso wanted 2 say.. jocelyn, sharon, n all my dearest frien who saw wat i wear everyday.. did u feel my wearing got prb? jux tel the truth.. i never wear tube never wear spaghetti 2 college.. normally i wear shirt wit skirt o short.. izit got prb? haiz.. pls pls pls.. i beg u all.. let all tis stuff over k? jux stop here k? really enough d.. N pls la.. my frien din influence me.. they didnt.. they treat me very good.. if not them, i wil become crazy cos of u d.. haiz.. not their prb!!! dun say them!!! pls.. is u make me so suffer.. i jx 1 2 get out of ur world.. let me quit..

A raining day..

yea.. feel so nice 2day.. the weather is so good.. hehe.. but cos of raining i have to waste rm2.50.. tat stupid taxi driver so bad la.. charge us rm5.. haiz..

2day inside the train i saw a special frien (a guy who wanted 2 noe jocelyn).. hehe.. i trying 2 make them talking n communicate wit each other but end up i talking with him.. swt la.. i really duno how 2 find topic 4 u both la.. i m sry lo.. haiz.. miss a chance d lo.. nvm.. next time i wil try again.. hehe.. hope the chance will coming soon..

Stupid haunted house....

First of all. i would like 2 apologize to my dearest sharon.. hehe.. really sry sharon.. u sure very regret for bringing me 2 haunted house rite? hehe.. sry.. i really very scare of those stupid ghost.. when i recall the scene in the haunted house, i keeps laughing at myself.. really very funny la.. sharon, u r really brave enough 2 bring 2 gals.. n ur action really makes me laugh.. u told the ghost tat u noe who are them? n say tat if u near 2 me i Will kick u? hehe.. u so cute la.. wat i noe is jx hold ur hand tight tight.. hehe.. i damn scare la.. sum more tat stupid ghost touch my leg.. make me cant even stand properly.. inside the haunted house i really did many xia sui stuff.. hehe.. i not dare 2 face them d.. n i'm not crying la.. jx too scare d.. keeps sweating.. hehe.. Omg.. really very xia sui la.. hehe.. by the way, tis incident makes me keeps laughing.. n i really feel very happy although got a bit xia sui.. hehe.. sry a sharon.. wasted ur rm6..

Jocelyn.. sry ya.. u are my best friend la.. really sry 4 not accompany u.. but sometimes there are some condition tat makes me duno wat 2 do.. hope u wil understand my condition.. mayb i m jux duno how 2 refuse ppl.. Im sry.. i really love u guys.. dun angry ya.. love u.. :D Oh ya.. i really appreciate our conversation 2day.. let me have a chance 2 explain my condition 2 u all.. hehe.. Thanks god.. FRIENDSHIP FOREVER..

HOT pink or Purple?

2day, due to the preparation 4 charity carnival, jocelyn n me went to a bakery shop to buy some ingredient.. v decided 2 buy some coloring to make our drinks more attractive (commented by zi qian). i have a different opinion with jocelyn.. she said that HOT pink is nicer.. but i prefer purple.. den v argue inside the shop 4 quite a long times.. hehe.. Hot Pink? wat color is tat? jx like red color.. hehe.. purple is nicer rite? more special wat.. Den v decided 2 call Qian and ask 4 her opinion.. hehe.. guess who wil win? At last, v brought purple and blue.. hehe.. sry o jocelyn.. Din buy ur Hot pink.. u sure very angry rite? hehe.. dun la angry.. purple is nicer.. trust me.. hehe.. so guys.. do u think purple o hot pink nicer?

i'm a strong gal..

hey friends.. See.. i can go back alone and safety reach station weih.. hehe.. i big d ya.. dun worry bout me d k? i wil protect myself from bad ppl.. hehe.. so a.. dun treat me as a little gal d la.. i nearly 18 d.. hehe.. especially tat sharon a.. dun feel sry k? i must thanks 4 u n ur mum cos always fetch me 2 station.. hehe..

Actually 2day i did a vy xia sui thing.. 2day a guy follow me from station 2 college.. v took bus mini which cost 80sen per person (with air-con).. when i took my wallet out i realise tat i dun hv shillings.. i jx have rm50.. Omg.. i so scare la.. cant 1 me 2 borrow money from tat guy rite? i duno wat 2 do.. jx take all the shillings out (60sen).. n hope tat bus uncle will accept it.. but.. guess wat? i no need 2 pay 4 the uncle.. u noe y? cos tat guy pay 4 me d.. hehe.. luckily.. if not i sure vy vy vy xia sui.. hehe.. thanks ya..

Amway? Killing ppl..

Omg.. my parent kena tipu again.. stupid amway.. guess wat? a water filter cost 3thousand smtg.. damn expensive la.. haiz.. jx bcos is cousin's gf.. bcos of pai se.. bcos of stop them fan-ing us.. my dad hv 2 buy it.. haiz.. v ad hv other brand of water filter la.. amway so wat? the water is more special izit? really really vy angry.. n hate amway.. pls la... dun find us d.. v ad buy many stuff from amway d.. pls dun come again.. scary man.. haiz..

haiz.. i really tired of everything la.. no1 wil und my feeling.. wt they do is correct n wat i do is wrong.. haiz.. well.. i jx accept it cos i dun 1 a small things make everyone argue.. n i m tired of explaining.. no point i explain to the person who cant und me rite? i rather he blame all the fault on me n hate me.. haiz.. jx let me go on wit my mew life can a? ha? pls.. y he 1 2 control my life? its my life k? i hv my right 2 do wat i 1.. pls pls pls.. let me choose the next step of my life on my own k? haiz.. nvm la.. i think he won und.. in their heart i m those stupid gal o mayb a cheap gal.. its really hurt wen they say tat bt i jx hv 2 accept it.. cos i really hope everything wil stop there.. its ok they say how bad am i.. bt the onli things i 1 is jx let me go.. i dun care how ppl say.. how ppl think of me.. i noe wat m i doing.. n i noe my frien wil always be there support me.. i really appreciate it.. they willing 2 hear my complaining n even help me a lots.. really feel sry 2 them.. cos of my prb make them vy fan.. im sry.. n thanks ya my best friends.. i really love u all vy much.. n oso the most important ppl who always by my side.. my dearest sis..

Stupid Math..

Is there anyone who can help me? I going 2 flunk my math.. Stupid math.. make me headache.. almost all the ques i did wrong.. haiz.. how 2 go 4 exam wor? sure die d la.. summore i wanted 2 watch one million star.. cant skip the show d.. i ad miss the show 4 2 weeks d la.. dun care d la.. die den die la.. i jx try my best 2 do the stupid math.. hope someone can help me.. :(